January 2012
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Thinking about having the dog euthanized.
Thinking about it.
SH.N.N.G.NS Ѫ: Needed: $500 →
shaananigans:
I now need $1,000 in order to have top surgery. If I can get said money by early March, my spring break and 21st birthday will consist of sleeping in extremely uncomfortable upright positions whilst letting my chest heal as I treat myself to cookies, grapes, and juice.
My planned deadline is…
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what the heck
Can we talk about the nastiness of my last dream? I must first warn you though… Ok, warning given.
I was looking out of the back door window and saw my ex lying on the deck. He was on his back, had his knees bent and a dildo in hand. [remember, I warned you]. I keep watching and he drives it into himself, first slowly then he speeds up. He reaches inhuman speeds when finally, his intestines...
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Top 15 cities - with the WORST herpes rates.
According to the CDC, the top 5 cities have as high as a 40% infection rate for sexually active young people.
15. Norfolk 14. Birmingham 13. Detroit 12. Memphis 11. Nashville 10. Oklahoma City 9. Richmond 8. Baltimore 7. New Orleans 6. St. Louis 5. Newark 4. Milwaukee 3. Chicago 2. Washington, D.C. 1. Atlanta
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so many
sleepless nights
IAINTGOTTIMEFORTHISIGOTSHITTODO!
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I flipped
I flipped out on somebody, made a couple of mistakes and stumbled all over myself. I felt so bad about it but realized that I needed to stop beating myself up about it. That loathing just made those feelings so much worse.
Sitting here thinking I was much better a person than before then doing that shit, I disappointed myself. I didn’t think I still had it in me. But I guess I forgot...
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Anonymous asked: I've watched you for a while on youtube and other outlets. I think you're inspiring. Not just for being trans and going thru that journey, but for being strong enough to be who you feel you should be while the world around you seems to still be soul searching. You pour out your feelings and experiences for those who cross paths with you to have something to relate to. You seem to be a...
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Anonymous asked: heyy can i ask you what size jeans you wear because im gonna start transtitioning n i need new clothes n idk how men sizes work buh we look like the same size lol
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Anonymous asked: why are you and your girl so fucking sexy? youre both sweet and cute. i love following you both. i love seeing you two together. it makes me happy to see this love. cheezing big here!
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Anonymous asked: How tall are you?
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Anonymous asked: Why do you think your videos on youtube are popular?
Tennessee Tea Party Demands Slavery and Other... →
dontbearuiner:
“so as not to besmirch the reputation and standing of the Founding Fathers.”
WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK.
so just erase and ignore history instead. they did it, own up to and accept it.
Reblog this if you want a LONG anonymous message...
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poetisme:
deezyville:
I’d settle for a short one if it’s funny…
this would be interesting. if it actually happens.
i do wonder if anyone cares *over dramatic soap opera sigh*
if not, one may dream.
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“Everybody’s journey is individual. If you fall in love with a boy, you fall in...”
– James Baldwin (via monamade)
Denied
My financial plan was denied - twice. I am due to graduate next quarter, so I am trying to figure out why all of a sudden I am being rejected.
What bothers me more is that this seems to happen to quite a bit of the schools population. When folks get within a quarter or two of graduating, they get held back by something that was not a problem before.
Its pissed me off a bit. They did the same to...
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Watchhoneyedexcrements:
Laughing. Uncontrollably. Kevin Hart. Laugh at My Pain.
right click to go to the original link if it shows up off centered.
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“White queers, including white trans people, are at the LOWEST risk for pretty...”
– DTWPS (via zorascreation)
Truth! Fuck the ‘it gets better’ campaign!
(via kenzmirage)
Filing this under “things that may hurt for me to say but needs to be said.” it hit me when I was at a transgender day of remembrance event and hearing all the names of women in countries of color being read....
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In the last two weeks I have had a long dream every time I have slept.
I had 5 dreams about vacation or traveling. Most of my dreams involve at least 4 family members being present. Many feature sex or sexual themes at some point. It is usually very random and brief. I have had two dreams in which an old classmate appeared and interacted with me. Two dreams focused on the interactions of my...
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cuz I’m a family guy!
I think he called me your best friend just because he likes me.
I thought that was so cute though.. But has he learned to say Xavier instead of Azavier?
most kids dont like me since I usually try to repel them. hes likeable though. far beyond his years.
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Talkin' about Freud
We are covering Freud in my Theories of Personalities class, discussing the stages of psycho-sexual development. Every time she goes over something, I sit there and think “so how does this pan out for trans children?”
She was talking about girls experiencing penis envy and little boys fearing castration, going in about the Oedipus complex as well as the Electra complex. Saying that...
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Some people leave comments on my videos only to compliment my appearance.
Some do it every single time I upload a new video.
I wonder if they listen to a word I say.
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2012, The Year of Intensity.
This year feels to me to be the year of intensity. Appearing in my mind to be an intense red, as shown above.
Extremes occurring in every which direction. Loss, achievement, knowledge, understanding, love and growth, extended forward and back. I feel great change awaiting this year. Some of it may be devastating and others absolutely beautiful. I will have many decisions to make, choosing...
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Sexual Energy
Many people as of late have inadvertently encouraged me to embrace my sexual energy. For so many years I was afraid of it. Afraid of what it could bring me should I no longer attempt to tame it. I was curious of many things, yet feared getting lost in my desires.
With my thoughts focused around interrupting its flow, that sexual energy backed up like a clogged artery. This blockage created...
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Love.
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People are wonderful.
genuineeeegenuinee:
No, seriously. The right people make you feel good and understood and…safe.
I like people.
emphasis on the right people.
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genuineeeegenuinee:
kozmosis:
Lonely City
An...
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Trouble sleeping
My mind cannot rest.
The smell of marijuana making its way through my ventilation from room 5F is tempting me. Tempting me to go eat that last bit of spaghetti I put in the fridge.
I am not at all excited about what may happen once the financial offices of the school reopen tomorrow. But I reminded myself to relax and whatever shall happen is in my best interest. I mean, the last time they put...
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“Our separation of each other is an optical illusion of consciousness.”
– Albert Einstein (via togetherinbalance)
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I realized a long time ago that I did not trust others because I did not trust myself.
I did not believe in others because I could not believe in myself.
I did not love deeply because I did not love myself.
I did not understand because I could not understand myself.
I assumed hostility from others because I was hostile.
When I changed, so did my faith in others.
And as I gained faith, I met...
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Presence
Sometimes the presence of others stifles my processes. The mere physical presence of another person, at times, practically cripples me. I may remain stagnant for minutes to hours, just anticipating their departure so that I may return to behaving as I wish, privately.
More than anything, I crave and desire personal space. Maybe the amount of space I am seeking extends beyond personal, but...
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face the strange: Rape more common than smoking in... →
wellingtonyoungfeminists:
[TW discussion of rape]
“Today an article published in on Significance Magazine’s web site, a publication of the American Statistical Association and Royal Statistical Society, compared these rates to those of smoking – 18.3% of women over 18 reported…
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The length of my hair is giving me life right now.
By the end of the year it should be my ideal length.
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